Surrender

The biggest blunder,
little frog twitters from thunder,
what if, it gives up & surrender,
will fail to go underwater,
and will just squander.

I don't wanna be the tide,
which falls to rise up with a pride,
but which forms just coz of physics applied,
Check me, I wanna be bonafide.

One alias is destiny,
in a beautiful robe of profanity,
lessens conscious gravity,
answers brutality & insincerity.

Tears

another duality,
which takes you away from frugality,
you feel the pain,
and shed tears in vain,
why to cry and let be your heart so dry,
dry enough that you can not bear the pain,
and your mind so weak that orders your eyes to rain.
I am above my mind,
& want to take time to be kind,
Wanna unleash,
Want my heart to stop screech,
It is dark and in the stilness of graveyard,
I can hear someone calling,
Someone sobbing,
calling my name,
someone telling that someone,
is burning a not-so-dead dame!

???

I want to write,
till the moment everything is not right,
Till that moment,
I want to give it a tight fight.
I want to write,
till the moment my mind is not free,
There lies soemthing which doesnt sets me free,
I am fearful,
what may spring up,
I dont want to be weak,
and i choose not to tweak,
I dont want to be helpless,
and i need no ones caress,
I dont want to repent,
and i dont want brood over the time spent,
I have the courage,
and this is no mirage,
I have the courage to dream,
may be i dont end up in the cream,
i just want to rise,
from the fear of wrong and right,
may be its wrong,
may be its right,
i understand it to be just as a matter of time.

Ponder

Hours of mindless wander,
& the flow of water,
Stream gushing in a hole,
Deep away from soul,
Millions offshooting to a single goal,
enough is the reason to be a glory hole.

Infinite seeds intersects,
tried and tested paths have huge personal impacts,
why do we get swept away,
risk of danger works out one's way.

Incomplete....Without you everything is incomplete.

Bliss

Bliss is my life,
bliss is my fate,
bliss is when i am upto date.

Longing for happiness,
Thinking that I am living in pain,
Soaring for dreams high enough,
to reach there is not a plain.
Bliss is in thinking,
that I will rise from my slumber,

Up with my sleeves,
and i will let my hair fall,
i will not worry,
that i will loose or fail,
I will run for my dreams,
and dreams will run for me.

I just wanna do,
and i dont care if i screw,
it will be my destiny,
and it will be me.

Lazy or coward,
Free or debted,
Lost or famous,
I will be me,
and to know myself will be a bliss.

Trust

An innate feeling,
to not be laughed at back,
to cared where ever you lack.

first one to mock on me,
never the one to walk over me.

I am a jerk, you know that, i know that,
and i know that you will always let me know that.

I am rowdy,
and the scenario before you is never cloudy.

I trust you with my deepest shit,
you curse me but never takes ride on it.

School mate did a mistake,
and Mrs. Agony beats a cake,
I am her mate,
but didnt leave a chance to sheepishly smile at agony's face.

I may not stand for her,
she may not be the connoisseur,
Still i look for her,
i long for her and i abide by her.......

My refree

haywired,
just lost,
can think,
but cant stop,
just want to go on,
dont know when and where
i will really count upon,
just need peace,
just want to sleep,
just want to yell,
i know my god will hear my bell,
just you have rescued me,
i run to the doom,
and you are my refree

away

away, away & away,
from everything,
from every being,
from every thought,
from me,
from you,
from life,
from death,
from fear,
from anxiety,
from coldness,
from calmness,
from body,
from mind,
from ......................

????

so people centric,
still alone,
why the life seems,
full of paradoxes,
or may be its,
that what you want the best,
that tests you the best,
coz thats the only thing which can bring you
to your knees,
and then pain and the unease,
can only teach and breed the,
lessons which you have to learn

Soulmate

how can i write about you, i have a picture of you,
deep inside me, seated beside me,
i know you will make it right,
i know you are gonna give it a fight,
a hand which will mold me,
a hand which will lift me,
my ego so blatant,
then it will become latent,
i understand and repeat my fouls,
after being you my side,
i hope to stop my growls,
my heart questions,
and my mind suggestions,
to mend my ways,
to be able to entertain the sun rays,
a fairy in white for you,
want to be an answer for you,
want to be a reason for you,
a reason to live,
a reason to smile and thrive,
the world may tear you,
and your fears may rip you,
want to be the strength,
more closer than arm's length,
so that again you have the courage to fight,
while making it bright,
want to be the care,
and want you to see relaxed on a garden chair,
your heart of gold, made things unfold,
challenges are high,
still don't want to see you sigh,
don't want you to feel life is a toil,
can't see you spoil,
life is greater than emis,
let it not demise,
let it not wither,
let's always see the line of silver,
journey to a villa is easy,
loss of inner joy is messy,
let not nursery rhyme fade away,
let not the child's innocent fade away,
let not be the money making machine,
and we be the mean deviation from the mean,
the metro will take away,
the callous people will take away,
but you have to build it back,
and i will be the mortar to support your track,
want to see your heart smile,
and to put it back, i am ready to travel as many miles.

The rising

something was missing, something was dying,
an empty space, a feeling so waste,
crept in me, swept away me,
helpless and drowning, wanted to rush away from this maddening,
relinquished control, always opting for the destiny's poll,
now i want to charge back, want to redeem wherever i lack,
may be i sail, may be screw, but i will be the entire crew,
i can achieve, whatever i perceive,
no longer a dame, want to get a name,
want to soar high, as high as i can eye,
i have it in me, and i am not meant for bourgeoisie.