Road Ahead......

a step & i am ahead,
just a thought away and i am ahead.
a new perspective and i am ahead,
a new vision and i am ahead.
Was busy thinking of road ahead,
was some how sure about the road ahead,
destination has absconded,
i have lost my path,
i have lost my goal and i have lost my journey.
wonderful was the journey and glorious was the destination,
i was living it and the destination was growing big in me,
and now i have to deplete, cause the dream can not be complete.
i dont accept, my mind doesnt accept, my heart doesnt accept and my dreams doesnt accept.
my life, my garden and the sweet smell,
love use to fight over the plight,
some time love use to fail and some times the fear,
guess my love was real, i overcame my fear,
but to my utter dismay,
till then my destination was more more and more away.
i was dumb enough not to see,
i was rude enought to let me ruin the dream i have seen,
now i have to see ahead,
my mind says, i have to,
my friend says, i have to,
i have to coz i love you muma papa,
i have to coz i have no way.
Still my heart stands out all alone,
and twitters the long unheard songs,
it feels like soon the song is gonna fade,
it seems like soon i will be out of ma love maze,
what went around, has to come back.
Some how just i am reluctant,
coz i dont have anything, lest than liking you,
coz i dont have any dream, lest than to be near you.
But the life is long and complex,
and the whole equation makes me too perplex,
Guess the feeling was real,
guess the feeling was strong,
we need to think and feel in real,
but this time i was wrong,
i testified,
i used to feel and think,
see this is what i feel,
saw the way you felt,
it was all from inside,
i never what was that inside,
amy be the feelings i felt was from my heart,
may the way i felt was my love....

now the road ahead,
ahead can not be w/o u,
coz as the life is ingrained, so are you,
i do not want to dream,
i fear to,
my biggest one lies shattered,
and i do not have any courage to untattered.

now i just want to be on my own,
i do not know what i think,
i do not know why i think,
i do not know if i think,
i just want to think and do,
i just want to abscond and think,
i do not know if i m living,
i do not know if i m doing,
doing what i want to,
may be its not important